Im lost

Im so sad... WHY WHY WHY???

Cos i don't know what to study yet...

At first, i WAS studying A-level at Inti, then, one by one, my friend's left.. =.=

Then my mom was so interested in the sonography course, then ask me quit and go join =.=

Then i quit, but i feel i want teaching =.=

Then i apply teaching, but i apply wrong one =.=

Then i didn't get choosen, cos i apply wrong one(my results not good enough to get the oversea one) =.=

Then i thought i might as well go for sonography =.=

Then my mom learn from her friend that i should go form6 then next year when 2009 SPM result release then go apply teaching again =.=

Then i say cincai =.=

Then now my mom so scared of me going kl alone =.=

Then i say ask my ah ma follow me there =.=

Then my ah ma so happy =.=

Then my mom keep say wait two more years when more matured then go =.=

Then i saw the news bout kuching ppl go kl mati =.=

Then that night i so scared, i told dada i don dare go kl =.=

Then the next morning i told my mom i don dare go kl =.=

Then my mom so happy =.=

Then after few days i not scared liao =.=
Then i tell my mom i wan go kl again =.=

Im lost =.=

I miss my dada =( he's at work again